Sunday, January 18, 2015

We start again 2015

 Did you get one of those Christmas letters this year that sounded like a resume for the perfect family? You know, that one talking about the twins going to Harvard, the family vacation to save a small country, and the numerous awards for saving humankind from annihilation followed by a vacation in a newly minted country. After reading several of those I actually thought about writing my own, but it would sound like a badly written soap opera. Really.

I actually wrote a short letter to several friends detailing the family, friend, work and life issues that filled my last few months. After receiving a number of OMG type responses, and getting a good laugh out of the experience, I decided to change my focus. I might have to deal with drama, but I still could fill my life with laughter and adventures and, yes, wedding dresses! So welcome to the year of my 60th birthday year of the wedding dress. 

This year I want wild and amazing memories...lots of them. I want to go swimming with a mermaid tail and hike somewhere new and mysterious. I want to challenge myself to let go of things that drag me down and spend a year soaring. I want to sail into the sunset or sunrise with the wind filling my sails.
And yes I want to do my job well and be a leader that people are proud to work with. And yes, I intend to grow spiritually and take care of people I love. But I want to learn and laugh and push my limits just for the joy of it. I want to learn Hebrew, even if I need to take time off to do it!

So let's start with some truths. It is difficult to have full-time big job and still take care of a life. We might be able to have it all, but not at the same time. Somethings I have to do and make myself enjoy them, like lifting weights. I am watching my mom age and watching her life choices catch up with her...and taking note for my own future. I need to:
 Stay strong
Stay flexible
Embrace new challenges
Eat and sleep and exercise as if my future depends on it...because it does.
 
I know that issues I do not resolve will come back to haunt me over and over and over again. I have to face my own inner creepiness and staleness and fear and anger and losses and left over issues...and resolve them.
And move on into the world of possibliities.

Stay tuned...this is going to be good! 

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